Mirror
Mired in doubt, mired in
doubt…
I desire to clout
Soundly the image peering
back
At me, so much insolence
How dare you boast, how dare
you flout!
Mirror, you anger me without
a shout,
Shout though I may at you.
Truth is the heaviest burden
to bear,
And stark naked truth the
worst,
Smashing tentative dreams.
The streaming glass of a
rainy window
Reflects pale, wan. Do you
think my self-doubt
Is appeased by the mark of
times ago?
Out, damned spot, I in
silence shout.
Out, out!
Nothing so dramatic, so
tragic
As the plight of the Lady
Who cried, cried, cried.
But the yearning of scraping
the stain
Off myself
The need for someone to help me
out,
Is in my eyes, an urgent
drought.
You show truths, any sleuth,
Even Sherlock, would find
nothing about.
But you know me so well.
My face betrays the surface
of my psyche,
Traitor, traitor,
But though you know me
As others see, I doubt
You know the real me.
Expressions, expressions,
Twist in hurricane frenzy
without,
Without knowing the reasons
behind them,
Your all-seeing eye is lost
without
My help. You are nothing
without
My face to adorn yours, my
light to shine on you.
I retain that little power.
Louder
I boast that you do not know
my secrets
Because I can hide, I can
hide.
You I can do without.
I see your role in legend and
shout.
The maiden fair as snow,
whose fate you spelled out.
Tennyson’s faerie Lady
doomed.
Dna ecila uoy del yartsa.
Heartless, cruel, heartless,
cruel, no doubt.
Did Perseus’s use of you
As a polished shield first
sprout
The ill-fated integration of
you
Into our lives? You
out-thought,
Out-maneuvered us all with a
pout,
A smile. How dare you,
mirror,
Pretend to know all, dare to
air out
The surface of my secrets
meant
To be mine and only mine. Did
you
Take me for a commonplace
lout?
Looking at you is to many a
route
To obsession until they are
sick with gout
And can stare no longer
At what they so doubt, doubt,
doubt—
I run, feet on fire, from
that route.
It should hardly surprise me
That you follow no matter the
route.
Do you like to reflect each
pout,
To incur a shrill shout
A place so common for you
To be found? You should be
used by now
To hearing others out, out.
Oh, mirror, I start to see
without
Further ado, why so many fear
you.
Your image never fades out.
Like the dog’s eyes, the
toddler’s pout,
You stick, a parasite, so
devout
To your cause, sowing
distress,
That I cannot shake the
memory.
Mirror, get out. Get out!
Perhaps it is less the
imperfections,
Of face (though that causes
one to doubt
One’s worth) and more the
gnawing doubt
Of below the surface. Yes, I
dare that route.
Mirror, mirror, I fear you
will show me inside out.
When I grow up I want to be able to write poems as well as Lina.
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